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Seeks to bridge the gap between HURTING AND HEALING ON BOTH SIDES (victims and offenders)

For the past 12 yrs healing has eluded me.. i have struggled tremendously with grief, healing and purpose, and they are synonymous with one another. Because if you interrupt the grieving process, you will interrupt the healing process and if you interrupt the healing process there will absolutely be NO PURPOSE!

I vowed to myself that I would get PURPOSE OUT OF ALL THIS PAIN and that my sons DEATHS would NOT be in VAIN!

I love GOD so much that I truly wanted to FORGIVE, but my LOYALTY to my sons kept me stagnant. Because in my mind forgiveness.. meant BETRAYAL.

In reality ..that was such a LIE, because God has forgiven me for so so much!

FORGIVENESS means HEALING, PEACE, LOVE and most importantly I can now move in my PURPOSE!

Taking the same LOVE that God has encompassed me with, added to the wisdom that I have accumulated along this journey changing the trajectory of pain transforming it into an impactful path of PURPOSE! 

VICTIMS Going from HATRED to HEALING from

FAULT TO FORGIVENESS!

OFENDERS from EXCUSES, DEFLECTION and DENIAL to ACCOUNTABILITY, RESPONSIBILITY, REMORSE, and RECOVERY!

ALL under the umbrella of LOVE AND RESPECT!

Leaving my children in the cemetery was one of the most debilitating things I have ever done. And in that depredation there were very little resources for victim recovery and rehabilitation. Access to healing and restoration should've been as accessible to me as the trauma and devastation was! (I WAS SHATTER)! I had cried so much that I would look in the mirror and I couldn't see myself, all I could see was my life altering, heartbreaking situation! With no idea of how I was to pick myself up and re-enter my own life. I didn't know who I was anymore, Who I knew myself to be I had left her at the graveyard. I had no motivation, direction or desire for life. All the re-entry programs were geared at, created for and in support of the very people that were the cause of mine and my sons demise! how could that be?? We had lost so much and people cared so little. That left me even more hurt, angry, and confused. on the those few days that I would feel better I  didn't look better, grief was all over my face, all in my body and attitude (no one should have to feel like this) .My compassion for hurting people has me determined to do my part in healing the brokenhearted! MOMS OF MURDERED CHILDREN NEED LIFE RE-ENTRY RESOURCES! doctors, dentist (medical and cosmetic) therapist (spiritual also) personal trainers, clothes, hair and nails etc. are a lot of times needed to rebuild confidence and jump start a victim back to their life anyone willing to donation their time services or resources to this confident building cause will be greatly appreciated!   thanks in advance